This post is written mostly for me and may not make any sense to you. I need to purge feelings by writing and that's why this little ole blog was started in the first place.
When I was single I had never felt more close to the Lord. I literally carried my bible every where I went because I could not get enough scripture! I couldn't get enough truth and enough of the living water. I hungered for it.
After marriage something shifted. It wasn't my husband's fault but I had a hard time understanding my role in marriage. I had a hard time putting my husband first before my other family. I struggled with the loss of my baby. There were many other factors. But mostly because I had turned my eyes off of Him and chose to focus on myself.
I slowly stopped hearing the Holy Spirit's nudging to read scripture. I stopped feeling thirsty for scripture and my spiritual life became a drought.
I have been in this dry season for a while. I've briefly touched on it before in previous posts.
I recently started a Beth Moore study called "Breaking Free" the revised edition. I did the original 6 years ago and it was one of the most life changing bible studies I have ever been apart of. I am so excited to be going through this study again in a different phase in my life, as a wife and a mom.
There has been so much going on behind the scenes with extended family that I have not blogged about. I won't give details but I recently had to end the relationship of someone that was extremely toxic to my family. The toxicity was affecting my ability to be a good wife and mother. Coming to that decision was a very hard one. One that came with a lot of tears and backlash from others.
Although I am sad, I am relieved to let go and move on. Ready to raise my son (soon to be children) in a peaceful home. I am excited to meet God in this place and to grow spiritually!
It is so important to my husband and myself for our children to be raised in a godly home. I have to allow God to work on my heart and create a new steadfast spirit.
I am thankful for those of you that read this blog and I hope that I can continue to be honest with you and share life with you!
"He brought me out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, and He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps strong."